2017

 January 1st is one of my favorite days of the year. It is the day for new beginnings and leaving the past in the past. 2017 has been a year for sure. I have grown as an individual in so many ways. I saw God work in my life in ways I could have never imagined. My challenge to myself was to remain joyful no matter the circumstance, and if I am honest my joy did fade during some moments, but I learned that at the end of the day I will always be joyful because of Jesus and his goodness.  But I would like to talk about an event that happened in 2017 that really shook my world but grew my faith like never before. July 13, 2017, I had my first grand mal seizure while staying at my grandmothers for a few days. I was taking a nap then next thing I know I wake up in an ambulance hooked to a bunch of foreign objects.  Now, if you know anything about me, any medical issue, hospitals , and ambulances are one of my biggest fears. So the fact I was so calm and collected in this moment shocked me to my core. Reflecting back on this event I remember very specific details of why I was so calm. I remember feeling just a wave of peace come over me like God himself was holding my hand through this entire process. Through the ambulance ride, the blood work, the CT scan, even just laying in the hospital bed waiting for results, He was so present. It was like I knew I was going to be okay. He kept reminding me over and over again, I was going to be okay. So, after waiting a few hours the results came back my blood work was fine, my CT scan was fine. The doctors said it could be related to stress or the fact I just had raised my dosage in the anti-depressant I was on, but to be safe I was sent to a neurologist for an eeg scan and an mri. Neurologist normally take forever to get into unfortunately, but another blessing was my dad has a good friend that is a neurologist and was able to get me in asap! After my eeg and mri we just had to wait for results. So my eeg unfortunately came back with some abnormal firing on the right side of my brain. But my mri came back completely clear! Which is again, another huge blessing. We then went back to my neurologist to talk about how to deal with the misfires. They end ed up diagnosing me with epilepsy and started me on some medicine to maintain it. But I don't have epilepsy... Im healed. :)  But the main point of this entire testimony comes from the before and after. Before the seizure I wasn't in a great state mentally. I was struggling hard with anxiety and depression, I wasn't trusting God fully with my life, and I just wasn't the person God had called me to be. But after the seizure... I have never been happier. My smile have never been more real. (I'm even off my anti-depressants) My faith has never been more strong. And my relationship with God has never been this close. I would consider us besties.  My main point of this story is, what the enemy means for evil... My God and your God will use for so so so so so much better. He can turn any situation to something great. Don't lose you're hope in Him. He will never ever let you down. And nothing in this world can convince me there is nothing He alone can not do.  So go be great and love people!! Jesus is so good. :) Also... Im almost 6 months seizure free!!!! 

​Grace